It’s raining outside and I feel like writing again.
Only a month has passed since I got back to Amsterdam but it feels like forever. My circumstance has changed a lot which forces me to change as well. Normally, I’d start to get nostalgic and turn to the comfort of the past but this time, I’m glad that things are no longer the same.
I moved and I got a flatmate (Lucy <3). Living alone last year was a valuable learning experience. I learned to remember to buy toilet paper and trash bags, to fix the sink when it’s broken, and most importantly, to be comfortable with myself. I’ve grown so much as a person, but I’m glad that I no longer have to come home to an empty house. Lucy is a wonderful person. We share the same taste in music and fashion and an appreciation for arts so we get along very well. The best thing is that she cooks most of the time so I can finally discontinue my “rice and soy sauce” diet (this was not intentional. I obviously did not learn to cook).
Welcome to our crib: Besides changes in the surrounding, my inner self changed. The best way that I can put it is: I am no longer so sad. Last year, my life was a constant countdown, countdown the days until I can fly back to Hanoi, until I can find the comfort to call Amsterdam my “home,” until I feel like I belong. It was difficult to live in the moment because I chose to disengage myself from my surroundings. I couldn’t tell you how many times I thought of transferring. But then I did something I always eventually do, I got over it. I asked myself what I truly want. Do I really want to spend the next 3 years living like a lost tourist in a foreign city? I knew I had to pick myself up. No one else was going to do that for me. I started reading books about improvement of life (especially the law of attraction); I welcome change and open up to other people. For the first time, I tried to be confident and to actually “be myself” and I stumbled into the best people. The point of the law of attraction is that if you maintain a positive mindset and constantly work on yourself and your goals, good things will naturally come. Your actions are the result of your thoughts. I have learned to let go a lot. I no longer get worked up over small things. Live simply. Let things flow. Don’t force it. (A very important person taught me this).
Since I changed my attitude, everything else started to fall into place. Uni takes over a big chunk of my time but this time I can say, I truly enjoy it. It’s most likely because I was placed in a group with the nicest and funniest people with whom I can be myself and not feel judged. Only a month has passed but I feel like I’ve learned a lot.